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[radmoose]

I had a chance to hang out, have dinner and talk with someone that I care for a lot.

"On the playing field,you are much lower than the others."  So basically, I have a chance... a 1/1000% of a chance. (read: If there were 100,000 guys available, I am pretty sure I am not the one that is going to be chosen... if there were less, then I have even less of a chance.)

I knew this. Why?  Because as it was said before to me, "You are not mate material."

And so goes another part of the complicated life of teh moger.

Now, I want to be the best moger there is. OK, so I am the only moger. I want to be so good that everyone else WISHES they were a moger!

In no particular order I need to get my act together.

• Get a job
• Make a career
• Be financially sound
• Invest wisely
• Have a stable place to live
• Get a reliable car
• Work on my physical health
• Work on my mental health
• Get a degree
• Get rid of stuff

There is probably a lot more that I need to do.  I need your honest feedback, suggestions, comments, whatever.

Please let me know what you suggest I do.

One of the big things I need to do is spend less time on LJ, on forums, on IM, etc.... so you might see less of me for awhile.

Comments

[twilighthalcyon.livejournal.com]

honest feedback: you should have your shit together before your first kid


Comment: Im glad your getting aroun to it

[radmoose.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but so far I haven't found anyone that has done that yet. (and now it is kinda hard to go back.)

Thanks for the feedback and comment.

[dakhun.livejournal.com]

Yes, and you have to get the motivation behind all those things in order too. That's the real challenge, and that's probably what's the underlying problem. (if any, as my limited knowledge of the situation permits) You don't have to do all of those things, but you have to want to improve, to improve yourself.

How much stuff do you have to get rid of, and what is it?

[radmoose.livejournal.com]

Mainly a 10'x15' storage facility full of stuff...

But I just got a letter that unless I pay $178.50 by 6pm today (10/31) I lose access to my stuff and they will sell it all with all proceeds to go to them.

BUH.

That along with needing $50 right now for rent, and another $412.50 by Thursday.

Yeah, also waiting to hear back on my last job interview.. .doesn't look good since I haven't heard anything and was expecting to hear last Friday.

I am totally screwed.

No wonder no one wanta a moger.

I am worth a lot more, money wise, dead than alive (provided I don't kill myself.) Considering all the stress, I don't think dying of natural causes is out of the question.

[whyttygrgrl.livejournal.com]

Hun,

I am sorry you got that rough revelation last night. But I know you already knew those facts.

You lost the motivation a long time ago to do anything with your life. You keep making these lists but do nothing about them.
I wish you would get your motivator kick started before it is too late.

I don't know what happened to you. You were doing so well when we met and up until our oldest was about 1 you were trying so hard. Then you just.... stopped. Maybe when you realized that you didn't love me any more and started to feel trapped?

I wish for you that you find the motivation that it takes to make headway on this list and the lists within this list. Some of this stuff has needed work on it for many years.

My fondest hope for you is that you become the man that I know that you can be. And be the father that the kids NEED you to be. To do this you HAVE to work on all of this stuff.

Even through everything we have been through. Even now that we are parted I still believe you can do better. I believe in YOU!