RAD Moose

Going to hang out with my BearCub for a few days.

Taking the Metrolink down there. Takes 2 hours so it isnt too bad, except that it leaves here at 6:41am (and the next one would be late afternoon...) =(

He has to work, so I am going to hang out at Disneyland for part of the day... but it is supposed to rain like crazy. =(

In any case, it is sort of a mini-vacation that isn't costing me anything. =)

But I am going to see if I can find some possible job opportunities in the area.

Hoping to make it up to Sacraento on 12/22 and back down hereon 12/26 if possible.

I have a tentative ride up there, and either a flight or maybe a ride back. Dunno.

If anyone in hte Sacto area is reading this and wants to hang out a little bit, please reply or send me an email.

I am going to be pretty busy with my kids while I am up there, but might have a little bit of time to say Hoooooooonk!!!! =)

So this is the first night that I am home alone.  No one else here. Seren and the kids are gone. They moved into their new place this weekend. My roommate doesn't arrive until sometime this week.

If I didn't have to get up at 6am (4 hours) I probably would just stay up all night working on cleaning up the mess left behind, the websites I am supposed to maintain, and search for work.

Tentative arrangement is that I have the kids every Saturday while Seren works (like 7am-7pm) , every other Tuesday afternoon/evening (like 3-8) and every other weekend (Friday evening until Sunday night.)

Unfortunatly, I am not working, so I also get to watch the kids every Monday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday afternoons (like 3-7) until I do get a job.

Fortunatly, I have awesome kids as well as an awesome ex-wife.

Is it OK to be in love with multiple people?

I mean, I love my wife, however, we are really Parents, Best Friends and Roommates.

I also love my kids.. they are Teh Awesomeness =)

We are going to talk about other peoples.

Hi. I am RAD Moose, and I am a moger.

FYI... yeah, I am that not-as-rare-as-you-might-think gay married male.

I love my friends. I care a lot about them.

Sometimes I got to close to friends, and thought that there was something more. But we realized that we are just really good friends.

The problem is that I am thinking too much..... yeah...go moger!

I love someone very much. They mean a lot to me... probably more than they will ever realize.

I also care about someone else very much. They also mean a lot to me.... definately more than they realize.

One of them is a friend, and for various reasons we are not together. But we are still friends. =)

The other is also a friend and the problem that I have is that based upon how I have been involved with society, you are not supposed to be in love with two people at the same time. So I end up thinking, I still love this guy, yet I need to move on, and I also really care about and love this other guy...and think the feeling could be mutual... but I haven't told him since I am dealing with this 2 person issue (as well as trying to avoid rejection.... even when I thought everything was right, I was rejected.... mogers don't like rejection.)

Part of me wants to walk right up and tell him how I feel.... another part of me wants to just stay quiet and hope it passes so that I will not possibly push a friend away.

Of course, there is the other problem of other friends having issues with me being close to my friend.

Ah, the complicated life of a moger.

Oh.. to complicate it even more, I have told this friend that we could never date as we are too incompatable or don't have enough in common (which we both "agreed" on.) [Random note: I also told my wife on our first date that I would never marry her.]

I don't know if we could spend the rest of our lives together... but honestly, I would like to spend a lot more time with him now and in the future.

Forget about the issues (wife & kids, etc.) that come with a moger... focus on the following question.

Are you just supposed to lose all feelings for someone you love if you also love someone else?

Argh! My brain hurts... time for sleeps.

*mogerhugs*