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I am sorry.

WTF?

I just wrote a huge long post about my last post... ya know... the one where I said "I am sorry."... yeah, that one.

But it just disappeared. So... where do I begin?


Am I sorry? Yes and no.

I am sorry that I did not meet your expectations of communication, yet I was not aware that I needed to tell you that, otherwise I would.
I am sorry that I have given you the perception of being mean, please talk to me.
I am sorry that I was so secretive that I caused us to lose our friendship.
I am sorry that we can't be together (although I sometimes ask myself why.)
I am sorry that I have been stressed about work.
I am sorry that I am sorry =)

But, I am not sorry about who I am.  You can talk to me. You can let me know what is going on. You can try to be my friend again. You can talk to me about us.

I was pretty down on myself today. Lots of little things, plus the stress of work caused me to be Emo Moger... not good.  It was almost as bad as about 5 month ago... it started to get that way.  Buh. I am not supposed to let anyone or anything get the best of me. I am not going to take the blame for things that I should not.  So... WTF am I doing?

Fortunatly, Guardian Angel reminded me that I have had some awesome stuff happen in my life, and while I am not where I really want to be nor with who I really want to be right now, that doesn't diminish what I have done, and who I have shared parts of my life with.   It will work out.. and hopefully for the better.

I am Teh Moger. 

I need a distraction.

In case you don't see a lot of a moger around here, I got a bunch of stuff that I am working on.

So, feel free to drop me a line or drop by my site (http://www.FURiends.com) 

Until we talk again... *mogerhugs*