Reoviking

I hoof not worked on my LJ screen saver for a few days...dealing with mail server issues (not MALE issues!)

I am bored. Work is busy. But now I have the weekend.. stuck at home tonight (took the squids to CEC earlier)

Was doing ok and then all of a sudden I felt extremely depressed and had 0 self-esteem.. yeah, EMO.

WTF? Where did that come from? And then someone mentioned something that triggered some other thought, that triggered another thought... the domino effect. And bam! I felt even worse. Just something obvious that I have overlooked for months (and no, I am not going to write it here since it is something personal having to do with one of my furiends... stoopid moger!)

So, I hope to find something to do tomorrow night... yeah, I actuall have a night where I get to get out of the house.

I haven't planned anything yet, since every other time for the past couple months that I plan something, it gets cancelled, usually at the last minute. I am batting 1,000 at NOT doing anything. As opposed to someone else who seems to be having a good time despite what they posted in their LJ =)

I am heading to bed. Don't want to... buh.

Oh well, I can see why no one wants to spend time with a moger... too ELMO er EMO.

Every Day Is Exactly The Same...

I believe I can see the future, cause I repeat the same routine. I think I used to have a purpose, but then again that might have been a dream. I think I used to have a voice. Now I never make a sound. I just do what I've been told. I really don't want them to come around. Every day is exactly the same. There is no love here and there is no pain.
Every day is exactly the same. I can feel their eyes are watching, in case I lose myself again. Sometimes I think I'm happy here. Sometimes, yet I still pretend. I can't remember how this got started, but I can tell you exactly how it will end. I'm writing on a little piece of paper I'm hoping someday you might find. Well I'll hide it behind something
They won't look behind. I'm still inside here. A little bit comes bleeding through. I wish this could have been any other way, but I just don't know. I don't know what else I can do.

Welcome To Day 138...

Now, some of you (Hi Pyger!) thought I was being extremely depessing for my last post.

I had just downloaded the EP for "Every Day Is The Same," so I thought I would make one of those annoying lyrics posts (with a slight modification to make it one paragraph.) I am not depressed. Actually, I am in a pretty good mood for various reasons. Listened to teh rest of the EP and that um was interesting.

I didn't get a chance to get out, as some plans changed yet again =) but oh well... I will get a chance to see some of my furiends soon =)

Hoof a moose excellent weekend... and Hoppy Easter!

"'o.-'"