Day 106

Damn... forgot that yesterday was PI day!!!!! (3.14 = March 14) Buh!

Another long day... not as productive as I would have liked.

Got to chat with a lot of furiends.

For those wondering, you probably don't know the people who I have been going out with =)

In any case, I am meeting new friends as well as trying to hang out with previous ones.

I am currently watching Ferris Bueller's Day Off... my favorite movie for various reasons. Yeah, someday I'll write about that.

Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it.

2 love or not 2 love that is the question....

Is it OK to be in love with multiple people?

I mean, I love my wife, however, we are really Parents, Best Friends and Roommates.

I also love my kids.. they are Teh Awesomeness =)

We are going to talk about other peoples.

Hi. I am RAD Moose, and I am a moger.

FYI... yeah, I am that not-as-rare-as-you-might-think gay married male.

I love my friends. I care a lot about them.

Sometimes I got to close to friends, and thought that there was something more. But we realized that we are just really good friends.

The problem is that I am thinking too much..... yeah...go moger!

I love someone very much. They mean a lot to me... probably more than they will ever realize.

I also care about someone else very much. They also mean a lot to me.... definately more than they realize.

One of them is a friend, and for various reasons we are not together. But we are still friends. =)

The other is also a friend and the problem that I have is that based upon how I have been involved with society, you are not supposed to be in love with two people at the same time. So I end up thinking, I still love this guy, yet I need to move on, and I also really care about and love this other guy...and think the feeling could be mutual... but I haven't told him since I am dealing with this 2 person issue (as well as trying to avoid rejection.... even when I thought everything was right, I was rejected.... mogers don't like rejection.)

Part of me wants to walk right up and tell him how I feel.... another part of me wants to just stay quiet and hope it passes so that I will not possibly push a friend away.

Of course, there is the other problem of other friends having issues with me being close to my friend.

Ah, the complicated life of a moger.

Oh.. to complicate it even more, I have told this friend that we could never date as we are too incompatable or don't have enough in common (which we both "agreed" on.) [Random note: I also told my wife on our first date that I would never marry her.]

I don't know if we could spend the rest of our lives together... but honestly, I would like to spend a lot more time with him now and in the future.

Forget about the issues (wife & kids, etc.) that come with a moger... focus on the following question.

Are you just supposed to lose all feelings for someone you love if you also love someone else?

Argh! My brain hurts... time for sleeps.

*mogerhugs*

I see...

I see the potential in you.
Can you see the potential in me?

Others see your body,
I see your soul.

Trust me to stay with you,
and you stay with me.

You want it all right now,
relax and you could have it then.

We all have our faults,
let us work on them together.

I have a hard time expressing my feelings,
at a level you would understand.

Remember that I am always there,
even when you feel everything is gone.

We close our eyes,
and the world has turned around again.

I want to wrap my arms around you,
and show you how much I care.

I am not just another guy,
I am your loving friend.

Day 107

HI... ok, I got the hint. (You were not too anonymoose!) I will put the L back in e'mo... so all ELMO all the time! (OK, maybe not)

Today... good day.

Got a call about a job. Need to take an online test.

Got to go out with a furiend (nekomonthetiger) to go fursuiting at Golfland Sunsplash... He should have some pictures (and maybe video) online soon.

On the way back home, ran by another furiend's place of work... he was gone.

Called up my furiend and told him that I wanted to talk. Talked. Got an answer. Not the one I wanted. Nor the one that I didn't want. But I got the correct answer. "I have got to think about it." WTG...thanks =)

Tired. Sleepy. Anxious. Relaxed. =D

Anyone know when the Nintendo DS Lite is going to be officially released in the US (as opposed to a Japanese import?)