Fuck man, sorry things are so insanely rough for you:(. I wish there was something I could do, but I can't even seem to help myself so I'm a useless piece of shit:p. I hope things' somehow pan out for you,..things seem to get so shitty, hitting their apex, and then leveling off at some point. Sucks yours seems to not level off, but damn it, it will, something has to level it off!